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[04 Jun 2006|07:29pm] |
this entry is going to be super personal.
but, i dont write in here a lot and i need to get things out.
my sister has recently overdosed again after "escaping" her half way house. she's been a complete fuck up for the past uhm 4 years. my life has been on a downward spiral as far as my family is concerned for that amount of time. as the time has progressed you would think my mother would actually put her foot down and lose contact with my sister because of the choices she continues to make. but, on the contrary my mother is in a way closer to my sister than ever. its pretty lame. im getting yelled at every single day because of all of my c's i got in the second semester, and for the fact i have yet to find a job for the summer. (but in my eyes summer hasn't even started). i am constantly rediculed(sp) for being unresponsible, lazy, and pretty much a screw up. my dad makes me feel like complete shit each and every day and i cant even stand to look at him. it makes me want to literally throw up. i havent had a normal conversation with my father in atleast 6 years. it's pretty pathetic. now for my sister, who in her lifetime has gotten arrested numerous amounts of times, has lived off the streets of camden, has dealt and done every drug possible, and has gotten fired from more jobs than i have hairs on my head. but for some odd reason, my mother finds comfort in buying my sister new clothes and taking her to get her hair done. it's all fucked up. my sister doesn't get yelled at, she does not get rediculed and she is having a fantastic life living up in our poconoes house, for free.
my dad is threatning that i might not be able to return to albright next year. if i dont go away and live in my apartment with katie im going to go nuts in this house. im just hoping things work out for the better. but no matter how many times i tell myself that, i just feel like im kidding myself each and every day.
aside from family issues, i am very fortunate to have great friends. i have friends that live 10 minutes away and i have other friends that live 3 hours away. no matter how far they are, they find a way to keep in contact and that makes me feel happy. im so happy to have amanda back in my life. she knows exactly what i am going through because she has been through it also. she understands why im moody all the time anymore. she also gets why im constantly getting angry at the littlest things. i love her.
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[08 May 2006|06:47pm] |
uhm
friday last day of classes.
chuck e. cheese's and toga toga on saturday.
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[04 May 2006|01:33pm] |
i hate liars.
and someone who screws me and my good friends over.
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[29 Apr 2006|08:06pm] |
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-got approved for an apartment next yr.
-10 days of classes left.
-4 finals in total :(
-became friends with amanda again; after 9 long months.
-beach beach beach.
-saves the day.
-job
-<3love<3 summer clothes.
-katie has mono (get better.)
-i miss kendall.
-shes my life, and she has my LIFE. literally.
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[23 Mar 2006|11:16am] |
"Free your school from the tyranny of stale music! Help has arrived, as mtvU’s Campus Invasion 2006 liberates campuses around the country this spring with the year's top emerging artists: Motion City Soundtrack, Straylight Run and Hellogoodbye."
Albright College
Reading, PA
Friday, April 28th
shitttt
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[21 Mar 2006|12:35pm] |
i applied at sam goody to work for the sum sum.
something is telling me im not getting a call back.
pretty much for the mere fact that one of the guys that works there is a stock boy for the payless i used to work at. ironically, it is the same payless i quit after only like 4 weeks. the lady there hates me.
mooooo told me cherry hill is too far to drive for a job. i infact have to disagree, because that's where all the oppurtunities are.
i need a job starting in mid-may.qqqqq,edsfnsdgvvv csdgdfh
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[06 Mar 2006|06:37pm] |
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life has been sucking.
i got my guitar capo stolen.
my viola is missing.
there is a big hole in my boot/sweat jacket.
therefore, my clothes suck.
i am negative 7 dollars in debt.
some people have been getting on my nerves.
i want spring break to come so i don't have to worry about really anything.
ps. while looking back over old pictures, old journal entries, and really reminiscing about life in general, ive come to the conclusion that I miss old best friends, and people i stopped talking to because of stupidity and immaturity. im really sorry i was stupid.
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[08 Feb 2006|03:20pm] |
it was like the aquariam, but not!!
michael and jeffrayyy.
things have been going good lately.
kendall katie and me are getting an apartment next year. we went today to get applications and whatnot.
partyyy!
tony hawk 24/7
fun weekend coming up.
academy is concert on sat!
theres more but im too lazy.
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[21 Jan 2006|11:40am] |
there was a home invasion and a murder in my development yesterday, right up the street in fact. the police say it wasn't just a random thing, and probably had to do something with drugs.
drugs seem to always intervene whenever a murder or some sort of horrible crime occurs. i have a strong hatred towards them i must say.
but on a happier note,
i return to school tomorrow!! yayayay. i talked to mr. matt esling for a while last week and he completely changed my mind about coming back. now i can't wait.
lovelovee
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[11 Jan 2006|05:14pm] |
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i need to lose weight.
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[02 Jan 2006|10:46pm] |
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christmas break has been fantastic.
too bad it didn't really feel like christmas on christmas day.
hung out with a bunch of people i havent seen in a while.
randomally took a trip to king of prussia and went shopping with my favorite roomate ever. ended up staying over her house and played mario party. now i want a game cube really badddd. moo is getting me one next week :] im going to bring it back to school and play 24/7 or something.
new years eve was really fun + random. went to dan's house and hung out with old friends<333 unfortunately i was handed shots of margarita mix accidently and got horribly sick the next morning.
i got so many new clothes and am soooo happy. i can't wait to switch majors to fashion merchandising, but i might still minor in psych. who knows.
i miss albright, but not really at the same time.
yuppp.
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[05 Dec 2005|04:03pm] |
this weekend was fun. that is all.
( Read more... )
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[30 Nov 2005|06:45pm] |
ITS ME ITS MEEE!
ps.
i come home in 13 days! yay! i only have two finals because my english one was cancelled ha. im kind of nervous for my psych final because i'm horrible. sometimes i don't like here, and other times i really really do. i need to make up my decision on whether or not to transfer. gahh.
i miss last year and cutting almost every day HAHA.
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[26 Nov 2005|07:35pm] |
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break has been okay. yesterday dana had her party and i got to see everybody i havent seen since summer/school let out. it was fun. tomorrow mother is taking me to the king of prussia mall on the way back to school =(. thats a sad face to school, not to shopping. i need to buy a bunch of things for christmas. i also ordered a f'ing hoodie last week that has still not come and it said 1-5 days. 1-5 days my ass.
these are all jess's because i forgot my camera.
( random... )
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[08 Nov 2005|09:55pm] |
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went to the movies with marinda, kelsey, mike, jeff, and mike last night.
we saw jarhead and saw two for a grand total of 9.50. hahha.
jarhead=amazing because of mister gyllenhaal
saw two=one of the most digusting movies i have ever seen but really good none the less.
<3
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[01 Nov 2005|09:48am] |
halloween was really fun. i didnt get to go trick or treating though haha =(! katies friends mike and joey came up and we hung around with them for a while. watched joey build a plane costume out of cardboard. i built the wings what what!
then we went over dougs apartment and ate pizza/hung around.
then we came back and all watched laguna.
afterwards doug and katie left and marinda and kels came and got me and we all went to go drink with matt mike jeff little mike and evan.
( halloooweeeen )
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[25 Oct 2005|08:11pm] |
- Sunday November 13
Philadelphia, PA @ Electric Factory
Blood Brothers
Coheed & Cambria
Mewithoutyou
fuck yea.
( LIFE LIFE LIFE )
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[18 Oct 2005|11:08am] |
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sigur ros- vaka |
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ajghadhg
i never update this anymore.
i don't really want to go back to school. if it weren't for katie, doug, kelsey and marinda being up there, i wouldnt be sane.
my sister came back? random. shes checking into another detox center i believe. or something.
im confused with everything right now.
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[10 Oct 2005|09:44am] |
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i am currently obsessed with the jack's mannequin cd.
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